12/21/20 Desert Mandolin
Updated: Mar 15
Morning in the desert. Winter Solstice. Moon is waxing gibbous. Saturn and Jupiter in nearest conjunction in some 400 years. Looking for quiet, peace, rest, and it is close. The desert night is cold. Very cold. The fire was a welcome warmth and my layers of blankets were necessary for the freezing that the night brought on. And now the day brings a warmth from the sun and a still-lingering crispness in the air, which is unquestionably dry. Very dry. And the sun's warmth exaggerates that and that is ok as long as I am hydrating and protecting myself with the water and oils I've brought. This land is hardly habitable by men. We must bring supplies from elsewhere just to last a couple of nights. Beyond that we are helpless here. But somehow not all life is helpless in this desert. The birds song this morning was lovely and brought much joy as I listened from my cocoon.
As I sit and relax my body one piece by one piece, I begin to tap into the feeling of immense joy and complete ease and satisfaction, the feeling that I am just enough. There is an awareness within me that this feeling is a joy that will last a lifetime, maybe infinite lifetimes, and I'm tapping into it. I can feel this feeling and am letting my imagination soar. I go to a time when this is the only feeling there is and it exists in all moments. It is The Experience. This thought brings more joy to this moment. I feel lighter and more at ease.
And then I experience this feeling as a feeling in others and find that the simple wish for them to be happy brings even more joy and love to my heart. Just simply wishing them joy and happiness brings me a joy and happiness that is unparalleled and makes me feel more connected to them. So the task is simple: just wish someone happiness and it will be so. That is all. And then we all tap into the joyful, blissful, highness that is possible though this life.
How much more clearly I can see now. And how much this frees me from the burdens of discontent.