• Gregory Allison

Updated: Mar 15, 2021

Morning in the desert. Winter Solstice. Moon is waxing gibbous. Saturn and Jupiter in nearest conjunction in some 400 years. Looking for quiet, peace, rest, and it is close. The desert night is cold. Very cold. The fire was a welcome warmth and my layers of blankets were necessary for the freezing that the night brought on. And now the day brings a warmth from the sun and a still-lingering crispness in the air, which is unquestionably dry. Very dry. And the sun's warmth exaggerates that and that is ok as long as I am hydrating and protecting myself with the water and oils I've brought. This land is hardly habitable by men. We must bring supplies from elsewhere just to last a couple of nights. Beyond that we are helpless here. But somehow not all life is helpless in this desert. The birds song this morning was lovely and brought much joy as I listened from my cocoon.

As I sit and relax my body one piece by one piece, I begin to tap into the feeling of immense joy and complete ease and satisfaction, the feeling that I am just enough. There is an awareness within me that this feeling is a joy that will last a lifetime, maybe infinite lifetimes, and I'm tapping into it. I can feel this feeling and am letting my imagination soar. I go to a time when this is the only feeling there is and it exists in all moments. It is The Experience. This thought brings more joy to this moment. I feel lighter and more at ease.

And then I experience this feeling as a feeling in others and find that the simple wish for them to be happy brings even more joy and love to my heart. Just simply wishing them joy and happiness brings me a joy and happiness that is unparalleled and makes me feel more connected to them. So the task is simple: just wish someone happiness and it will be so. That is all. And then we all tap into the joyful, blissful, highness that is possible though this life.

How much more clearly I can see now. And how much this frees me from the burdens of discontent.

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  • Gregory Allison

When I feel good about myself, I have so much love for all people around me. When I feel beautiful, I see beauty and love in all people. My judgements fall away and I can feel love for everyone. I feel an ease and a grace and I don't worry about the usual anxieties. I just want to reach out to friends to tell them how awesome they are. And I do! When I love myself, I can love the world.

photo by Celestine, Chart Three Productions

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  • Gregory Allison

These days go on and on into an endless oblivion. The sun, the ocean, the perfect unchanging Southern California weather. It's awful. It's painful. It is utterly boring.

I seek some kind of pleasure in food, always looking for the next meal. Anticipating, craving, salivating. I can hardly make it though an hour without checking out the situation in the kitchen, even though I was just there and know the whole inventory. Maybe something new will be waiting for me! Maybe there will be a sweet surprise. Maybe I'll come to a beautiful conclusion about my next meal, a spark of inspiration will hit and this meal will be the meal to end all hunger. These are just some of the thoughts that come to mind as I traverse the harsh landscape that is the day. What do I do with myself? How can I keep from eating? I cannot. I work so hard restraining myself in so many ways but food has such a grip on me. "Study it," I tell myself. "Study the craving, acknowledge it, dive into it." I don't know. Maybe tomorrow. I think I should practice the Buddha's discourse on the repulsive nature of food. I've been doing all of this thanking and showing gratitude for the energy that the food brings me, but maybe it's time to go the other direction and become repulsed by it.

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